It was my life. I miss it so much. Is it normal for you to miss something alot and it was just a sport or hobby, club, ect.. ? I don't think so. I didn't do it for the popularity, I did it for the friends that I would make on the squad and how fun it was and how happy it made me feel. I feel like a coward now that I didn't try out this year because of how sick i've been. I even talked to the coach about it and she said she would have made special exceptions for me to cheer. I wish I would have given it more thought.. but if I could go back in time.. would I really even try out? I mean all the hours you had to spend, all the excerise, and how tough it was especially on me because of how sick I would get just to do a few cheers. I mean would it really have been worth it to go through with it for just one more year? My senior year? Thats another thing.. "my senior year". I remember when I first made the squad my freshman year and how ecstatic I was. I remember telling my dad on the phone "I'm going to do this all four years of high school". Thats what makes me feel the most ashamed.. is that I didn't go through with�what I had said all this time. When I first had to leave school because of how sick I had gotten.. all the cheerleaders went out and bought me presents and made me cards... & that made me cry. It made me remember what I would be missing out on.. all the friends I had & all the time we spent together laughing and just being ourselves. I'm going to miss cheerleading. Believe it or not.. that was one of the hardest decisions I had to make on whether or not to choose my health.. or what I loved doing the most.
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