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Sep 2007
5:59 PM EDT
   

i'm definately going to break up with him. he has changed completely and i need to end it noww before it gets worse. i can't believe this is actually happening... we were supposed to be together forever.. but that doesn't really work anymore does it?? you give him everything you have to offer and then he throws it in your face and now he doesn't care about anything.. maybe he likes someone else... its just so painful, i've always been the one who has been with my friends through their breakups and i've always seemed to know what to say.,.. why am i so lost now? why can't life be just a disney fairy tale? and why do i have to be the one in the losing end of it?? why doesn't he seem to be affected by the way our relationship is turning out?? why isn't there something to tell you who you are meant to be with? or if you are supposed to stay alone forever?

is it possible to win him back?? do i want to? yes i do, i can't help but love him!! he used to be so sweet, i was everything to him, but then a four year long relationship is a really long time. i'm in love with that guy, the one who would bring me silly little gifts everytime he went out, the one who put a banner in the street that said that he loved me... the one who made me fall in love with him so many years ago with his charm and personality... why did he have to change?? what did i do wrong? i tried to be the best girl he couldhave.. why wasn't i enough...?

do i actually have the courage to break up with him? or will i break down in the middle of it and cry and beg him to stay with me?? i hope not.. but i feel so weak.. like i can't stand up to him.. he was my first boyfriend and i thought we'd be together forever.....
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