divahome's Journal

 
    
11
Feb 2011
10:17 AM CET
   

Wow, though I am not sure if gratitude journal makes me happy, i am pretty sure it makes my regrets less conspicious. Well there are still moments when something all of a sudden reminds me of things that were but not any more, of pain, of loss, of my mistakes and I start wallowing in the mudhole of self pity, kind of unwilling to come out. But it occurs to me that for every regret there are million other moments which were better than they could have been. Thankfulness shines as self pity disappears..
The other day mindless browsing led me to a forum where I read a discussion between mothers who had lost their mothers in childhood.It is when they have children of their own , they realise their loss even more. I remember what one young mother said (in her words), I look at the children playing and prayed,� ' All I am asking you dear Lord is time precious time' . Her words kept ringing on my ears- time, precious time.
And then I read another story in a book of a young woman admitted with cancer who said with tears streaming down her face that she will do anything to just be able to go home and change one dirty nappy.
I feel guilty to even feel thankful at these stories. I just want to hold tight to everything that I have, love them and cherish them. Regrets disappear. God bless all of you.

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