cnelson25's Journal

Nov 2007
1:41 PM MST

Today I was grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. We had the opportunity to talk with the bishop of the ward. I felt like we were really blessed. Also, I am learning how to be more patient and what I need to do. I went to the Toastmasters group for the first time. It was great and I really enjoyed the fact that I can improve in my language and public speaking. I know that I definately need to improve in that area. Other than that I am thankful to be a member because of the meaning it gives me in my life. I feel like it helps me in all aspects of life. It helps me know that even though I have really put myself on the line by saying that I am going to be playing the "game" again I know that I have a great many things to learn. I know that if it is right that God will grant me the blessing. Finally I am thankful because it helps me to know that I will be married in May as I have felt. It is different but I know it to be true.

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Jun 2007
12:15 PM MST

Today was an interesting day for the most part. It started at about 6:00 when I finally decided that I was going to get up and do something. I heard my mother exercising and thought about how I should have gotten up before her. I really should have because Mondays are terrible days for traffic. Needless to say I did some paying for the mistake. I was able to get up and eat and exercise. That was really helpful. Then I took my shower and was out the door. I even beat my dad out the door which was nice since I didn't think that it was going to happen. But of course it didn't really help much since I left at about 7:07 AM. I found all of the traffic on Highway 89 and from there is just got worse. I couldn't believe it. I had planned to be at my work by 8:15 for my partner call but I didn't make it. In fact I was still driving at 8:15. I ended up taking most of my time talking with my partners on the road. It was also hard because I needed to talk but I ended up cutting the call a little early since I went into an area of my office that doesn't receive reception. I was just feeling like it was going to be one of those days. I had a little time to get organized and then I was able to have our staff meeting with my father. After which I had my call with Sarano Kelley. We shared our eulogy and that was hard to both do and tell everyone. I didn't think it would be hard but I was weeping like a baby. I really enjoyed hearing the other people's and could tell that they had taken the assignment very seriously. After that it was kind of a blur since I didn't really accomplish anything. I am just kind of spinning my wheels and need to get more focused and on track. I got home and spent to much time on the computer playing Magic The Gathering. It has been hard for me not to live through my blindspot of gluttony. I just need to be present to the fact that I have the problem and that I can fix it. Things are going well. Other than that I am doing good. I have increased my points for my Sarano Kelley game and feel like Iwill be accomplishing all of the goals that I set for myself. I know that they are all attainable and I know that I have the resources to do so. One of the ideas that Rose gave to me today was to increase my number of minutes that I spend prospecting. I know this will help me quite a bit and I know with a little more effort I can be up to speed on the areas of insurance. I really need to find this purpose that will drive me to my goals. That has been the hardest thing that I have found. I feel like I haven't came to it yet. I need to pray tonight about what my purpose is and have Heavenly Father help me to see what it is that I am not seeing. I think this will need a few days and a little bit of fasting and prayer. Also, I probably need to go to temple. I haven't been there for a while and I know that I feel the most peace while I am there. Especially when I have a specific purpose for doing so. I haven't spoken with my sister yet but I think that the time is approaching and I know that with the Lord's help I will be able to tell her exactly what has been happening and how I am going to fix the situation. Other than that I have plenty of things that I need to worry about for my father. One of which is helping him market to groups. I have kind of taken the iniative but have fallen a bit short. Things are going exactly like I thought and I feel like i have fallen farther behind. I guess this should be one of the projects that I spend time on when I get to the office in the morning. I know that the time get to the office is the most productive time for me. So if I do that I will be able to have a clearer mind. I also need to refresh a few more times a day. Finally I need to fall still more than twice a day and I need to timeblock/mindump. These tools are really helpful and I know that I can do them. All it takes is just a little practice. Other than the above life is great. I am happy with the progress that I am making and can see how the Lord has helped me in all areas of my life. May heaven reap all of the rewards for whatever it is that I do.

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Gender / Age: Male, 43

Location: USA - Utah