cheerhottie8482's Journal

Aug 2008
2:07 PM EDT

life

my life is so messed up right now. i have lost pretty much all my friends. i have gotten closer to my cuz and some friends but thats about it. i bulit a wall between my mom and my sister. but i know either way my mom and sister will always be there no matter what. i am a different pereson and not very many people like that side. i need to change and become the person i used to be with her head held high. i very bright girl.� i have alot ahead of me in my future and right now its heading down a path that i might not be able to get out of. i need to get my life straight and figure somethings out in what i want in life.� i also have been heartbrkoen and it sucks. i wish i could go back and change the mistakes i made with him. i do still love him and i always will no matter what. he meant a lot to me even tho i never really met him or seen him. but now there is a new guy in my life and i really do like him. he is a lot older than me by 5 years here soon 4. but i don't care. age is nothin but a number.� he is a really nice guy and he makes me happy. i always smile when i'm around him and i never want that to change.� he makes me see the world differently. idk what will happen with us. maybe we wil just stay friends and never date or maybe we will date for awhile. idk but whatever it is i will have to live with it.

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Interests: i'm tiffany if it wasn't already obvious:) Its simple . I've learned to live , love and let go ; but so far , i feel like i've let go of all the wrong things . I'm going down a path that i dont know where its heading , and its almost too late too turn back . I'm soo lost in this world that i thought i knew . All the faces i considered friends , have only turned away , and i'm left wondering where i went wrong . i miss being sweet , innocent and naive ; i miss being someone people looked up to, and admired . I'm empty and full or regret , and lonliness ; I wish everyone could understand how i feel ; I wish I could be perfect ; but we dont always get what we want. Truthfully I regret a lot about my past, but I refuse to dwell on it as there is nothing I can change now. The only thing i can do is to learn from it. I used to care what people thought too much. But i learned life is too short to sit around and let it bother me. Im a very easy person to get along with. Iâ€™m not perfect,Iâ€™m not going to pretend.There are lots of things I want to change about myself, and I am forever trying to be a better person. i have a hard time trusting what people say and expect me to believe. I'm nice unless you give me a reason not to be. I am currently single; but i really like this guy. so hopefully everything will work out for us. I love meeting new people and getting to know them. i have deicated my life to cheerleading. I love cheerleading and no one can change that. I have cheered for Cheer Attitude in New York and it was a great experience. I now cheer for Thunder All Stars again. I love that gym. its like a second home to me. My hero is my sister Brittany. we may fight sometimes and get mad at each other and say we hate each other. but really we love each other to death. i don't know what i would do with at her. She is my best friend no matter what. my friends and family are my life. These probably are going to be the best years of my life, and I really am making good use of them.I have got so many memories, they are priceless,and I know I will never forget them. Without a doubt I'll look back and think â€˜fuck, I miss that!â€™. I am impossible to understand, honestly donâ€™t bother trying. you will never get to know everything about me, i'm complicated and sometimes its better that way. i do have aim just ask for it. Get to kno me