berries7cinnamon's Journal

aunt's burial was yesterday.

i cried a lot yesterday at the funeral because it seems... final. I cried when I was walking behind the car with her coffin. When they covered the top portion of the coffin and knowing that i couldn't see her face anymore, i cried even harder. Tears like rain drops just keep pouring down.

i love her a lot.

when they finally lowered her coffin down to the pit hole, part of my heart went with her. i am separated from her.

i will always remember her habits, her mannerism and images of her will always stay with me. Her voice will fade in my memory in time to come, there's nothing i can do to stop it. Right now, i will remember how she called my name, the food she made for me with love, always saving the best for us. Her sandy voice she used to call my name, how she tried to sing a song and i laughed at her voice, how she said hello over the phone, how she told me she cried over the phone when i called her to tell her that a group of male workers trying to open my house door when i was all alone at home when i was only 10 years old, how she tried to hide me from my mom when mom was mad at me and wanted to spank me real bad when i was around 4 years old, how she kept my secrets from my mom so that mom wouldn't spank me. all that, i'll try my best to remember it for as long as i can.

her love for me seemed so... huge that's beyond measure.

i will miss her.