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15
Nov 2006
2:24 PM EDT
   

I honestly though that today was going to be a good day. I was exctied. I had a date with a guy named cameron and I was just beaming for it. My dad had to screw over my plans last night so now. thats not going to happen. I am so fukcing pissed he can't just say hey, mechelle I can't take the boys tonight how bout Thursday nite but now my plans are messed up and I get to sit at home and think about how much fun I could be having with him while im bored to death. All my friends knew about it and they were excited as well but for no reason because it didn't happen. Everything in my personal life is messed up because my fucking family won't mind their own business. I would be engaged to Wylie right now if they didn't have to step in and say. I don't think this relationship that you have been in for 3 years is good for you and tore us apart. Thats stupid shit. i think I really am just damned to not find or be with anyone perminently. Its sick even after 3 yrs it didn't work out. He promised stuff to me up and down and it turns out that it wasnt real. I have a letter in my pocket saying you know your the only one I care about" or "I want the rest of my life with you and you can rest assure that I will be there for you when all this time is over." or "I love you with all my heart and I will forever and you can trust in that baby" ending it with YOUR LASTING LOVE AND UNDYING DEVOTION... i might as well have never loved if I knew that he was giong to play with my heart this much. If I knew that it was going to make me feel this way. fuck him. i just want someone who will love me but after a three yr fake relationship idk if I can love someone else.
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  • Username: TheRedGryphon
  • Gender / Age: Female, 35
  • Location: USA - Arizona
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    About Me: I am an intelligent person although I am emotional and that usually gets in the way. I just go out of a long relationship which I thought that I was loved in. I guessed wrong, because we are no longer dating. I have two jobs that Im working in order to get a car and in order to go to UofA as soon as possible. I want to get my massage therapy certification so I can make good money when I try to major for Psychology and minor in Law. I am a fake red head cuz I decided that I was not the personality of a blonde. Im very much a pisces and so i need someone who will keep my head out of the clouds.

    Interests: I love playing pool, blowing shit up, reading, writing, having deep conversations, fast cars, being myself, grunge music,feeling truely inspired or in lowmans terms in love, I love the ocean, I love rain.I love long baths.

    Favorite Music: I love grunge music! but also contemporary NIN,Smashing pumpkins,Alice in chains,Nirvana,Tool,A Perfect Circle,The Cranberries,Staind,Nickelback,Puddle of Mudd,AFI,Alanis Morrissette,the Muse, others to come

    Favorite Movies: City of Angels, Fight Club, V for Vendetta, Ever After, Anna and the King,Rocky Horror Picture Show,Anything Monty Python, 16 candles, more to come

    Favorite Television: I dont watch television...I don't think anything that decreases your brain waves lower then when you are sleeping is healthy...read a damn book!

    Favorite Books: Yay! Beekeepers Apprentice, Monsterous regiment of Women, The Moor, Justice Hall, O' Jerusalem, 1984, Anything Sherlock Holmes, Body of Evidence, Body farm, The red Deamon, The star of India, The angel of the Opera, The Jungle, The Count of Monte Cristo, I know why the caged Bird sings, To kill a Mockingbird, Civilization and its discontents, others to come....