I wanted to post something since it has been a little while. I wish I could say everything is all better. I just thought that I would pull away for a minute. I shut myself down. No more cutting. Not since the leg incident. I have been contemplating a job change. I work in a Starbucks but it is inside a casino...run by the casino. We dont get the perks that the free standing Starbucks receive. I am lead and trainer. Having said that...I havent trained a soul since we opened. I want to, I should have but they just dont give me the opportunity to do what they title says I should be doing. So, a new Starbucks is opening not to far from me. I wanted to look into it. My boss found out I was checking it out and wasnt happy with me at all. She asked me if I would be interested in a Supervisor position with the Food and Beverage Department. I have thought about this and I dont think it is the best thing for me. The hours and having to be the boss over people that I work with or have worked with in F&B. My boss also mentioned VIP host. I thought that would be more comfortable for me. However, when I tried to check into that postion. Find out what it actually entails....I cant get any answers. I asked the boss for that job if I could "shadow" a VIP host on my day off. She never got back to me on it. Also I am thinking about taking classes to become a table game dealer. I am not sure what I should do. As far as husband and all that is left of our marriage..I have yet to turn in the application. I just dont want to put my sister in a position to hire him and he doesnt show up or quits. I do have it ready and I think I will give it to her tomorrow. I feel so numb. I cant seem to make up my mind with anything. Anyway, this entry is waaaay too long. I will write again soon.
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