Stacey's life

Well tomorrow I get to go back to work. I went to the diabetic doc on Thursday. She is pleased with my progress.� Work has me "floating" to another place. It will cost me more in gas...but I guess it's better then dealing with the B.S at work.

I finally started to exercise yesterday. I did 30 min on the gym bike at the apartment. Today I was on 43 minutes when I started to get chest pains. Went home and took two asprins. It got better-I am still alive.

Went to church with dad and then didn't do much of anything else the rest of the day. my sugar was spiking high today and my stomach feels funny. Oh boy...back to work and I pray I am ok to work.

Well, I couldn't get on this to type a journal...I couldn't remember my password...lol... Well, i am back now-lets just hope I feel good this week to type the journal.

Today I am another year older. Dad was great of course. He got me a few shirts and we went to Mels for some dinner. Most of the day dad and i both had seperate doctors appointments.

It's funny how people who call themself "close friends" have forgotten my simple birthday. Makes you wonder how "close of a friend"� they really are,� And it's funny how a simple thing like telling someone Happy Birthday can become a big things- esp when people forget.

I saw my diabetic doctor toay and I am released to go back to work on Monday.� The diabetic doctor is happy with how things are. we have a ways to go...but this is a great start!

I will go to work on monday. Oh boy on that one.

Dad got his phone wet.� he has to get another one. Uncle Gary got a job with is good. well, ok well enough of this. I want to go to sleep.� This headache is killing me!!� Oh I got a perm today-they used the orange big rods and the solution took in 5 minutes and it looks cute!� The shirts dad got me for my bday look great!!� Ok the end of this journal!

I didn't do much again today. My blood sugars are all over the place. I left the readings with the nurse and they did get the blood test results but I haven't heard from the doctor yet.

My moods bad. I am really annoyed very easily. I think I have a lot of anxiety.� I am going to see the doctor tomorrow to see if they can give me something to help.�

I am staring to clean my room and get rid of crap I don't use. I called Joan at work and got her voice mail and let her know I am planning on going to work in one week and then called and told helen at work. SO...nothing more to report.� I still can't find my braclet?? I still haven't heard the final word on the car yet either.

ok well today was really not so great. I didn't feel good almost all day. My stomach was hurting all through church. I didn't do much today.� So there is really not much to write.

Another day.� It went well.� But I got diarrhea around 1am then again later in the day...what the heck is causing it?

Last night I took the liquid and pill sleep med. I was really tired this morn when I woke up.

I still can't find my favorite braclet.� Dad looked everywhere and he believes he gave it back to me...which is great. I have NO idea what I did with it.

Dad cooked some chicken wings and there were great..but they didn't want to really stay down. Prob to hard on my stomach.� I was going to go to the movies with Kelly but I couldn't keep things down.� I told Kelly about it and he could care less.

So I was on the phone with Steve about my car and kelly kept calling. When I called Kelly back he starts yelling at me. WTF? So I didn't go to the movies.� Kelly really pissed me off!

Steve said he has to tear the transmission apart...which will cost a lot...but he said he will work with me because he knows I couldn't afford it since I have been on medical leave for the last two months.� So he will let me pay half and then some more in a month. that was really nice of him...how many people do that. He is a great mechanic and has known my dad a long time.� There are some nice people left in life...can you believe it?

I went in the pool today at dad's. It was soooo warm. Felt good. The heater was up. I stuck my hurt knee in the hot tub which felt better after. I didn't get much sun...like I thought I did. Thank God I didn't get burnt.

Why is it that my "friends" don't want to hang if I don't feel well or I am sick? And now that I am losing weight--and I don't want to go out to eat all the time...people act different to me?� Now food's not the main part of life--I don't live for food.� I am annoyed by the way they are acting. It's like they are not the people I thought they were.� (SIGH)

USA (channel) has law n order marthon. YEAH!! I love that show. But I will have to turn the TV off sooner or later. LOL

Well my sugar is high right now and I am feeling blah.� I think I will try to get some sleep soon.� Dad and I are going to go to church tomorrow.� Well I am done on here for now.

I had a phone interview at 8:35 am appt with social security. Iasted over two hours. What a interview.

My surgars are so low and I have had so much oj�that I�cant eat because I have had to drink so much oj.

Off to sleep soon...I hope... Good night!�Patch's is sleeping right next to me...guess he's trying to tel lme something. lol....

TODAY WAS NICE- DAD AND I WENT AND BUMMED AOUND. THEN WE WENT TO EAT SOME� CHINSE.� it was nice. We went to BEST BUY AND I GOT MY TABS VIDEO.

WE WENT TO THE BASS PRO SHOP. THEN WE WENT BACK TO DADS. I oreded the wrong thing with chinese and got sick when I ate it.

I watched the fireworks on tv from New York. Very nice!!

I took my sleep meds and I am sooooooooooo out of it. SO i will close with this. I need to look for my braclet...prob would be best that I look for it tomorrow.� So night night!

Happy July 4th, 2008!!!

2:30 pm:

Today makes exactly two weeks that I have been out of the hospital---Happy happy!

I called Steve today and took the car to him. He says the car is going into two gears at once. He has a big project he's working on and won't get to the car until Thursday.� I left the car there because what can I do? The car won't go in reverse!� he says he has to look up some info on the computer to see what it can be. It may help to change the fluid out..but if that doesn't work then he will have to take the transmission apart--and that will cost A LOT!

So Wanda's moving out of my dad's house!!!� YEAH!! Although it can't be pleasant to have the person you love move out twice!� She pisses me off!� She's using the truck so when she's done with it I will be able to use it.�

But I am hanging out at dad's house today. I rented more movies!� I have rented over 17 movies this month! Guess I have to catch up on the movies sooner or later.

My sugar went really low around 12:30 pm today. I was watching a movie at my dads and didn't feel well. So I took my blood and it was 70. I asked my dad for some oj and i drank two small glasses...that's a lot for me.

I didnt sleep so well last night. I was up most of the night. So I called my diabetic dr and asked her to please give me some liquid sleep meds.� I am still waiting for a call back.� The blood work is not back yet either.

Ok..well enough for now.

MONDAY-MONDAY.� Today I decided it was time for me to go home to my house.�So I went home.�I decided to take the car to the grocery store.

As I was pulling into the parking lot the car stalled.� Then when I came out of the store it would not go into reverse. Went to dad's and he checked the fluid and it was�a little low.�I called Steve (mechanic) and left him a message. will see what happens tomorrow...

I am still cranky!

Today is almost over. Not a bad day. I have been getting annoyed very easily.��i went in the pool this morn. then went to walmart and got my depression meds and a few things. Blood sugar was all over the place.�i haven't thrown up today. Thank God.� ok...that's all i have to say for today.� i reinstalled a new wireless modem and it seems to be working so far.

This computer is pissing me off. I had almost this whole damn thing typed out and the internet connection dropped!� This journal entry won't be as long the second time.

I got my blood work done today. They got me on the second stick.� I weighed myself at publix again and i lost a few more pounds...yeah....

My blood sugar has been low today again. I am taking less insulin. It's� weird how now for two days my sugars are low. I am waiting for the spike.

I got�a nap today but then wanda had to get here and make so much noise that she woke me up and pissed me off at the same time.� Well, I can't think of anything I want to type. I am annoyed the internet keeps dropping. I got the wireless modem...I will just have to try and install it tomorrow.� Ok...good night. I tried to dye my eyebrows tonight to make them darker since they are blond...and I look funny.� Great! lol....

OK it's Friday. Wanda got dressed up and went out and it's almost 11pm and she's not back yet. With her b/f...again, she needs to get the hell out of my father's house. She uses the truck and doesn't put gas in it...but when I mentioned we need to put gas in it if we barrow it...she said she put gas in it...Yeah right! Did it just evaperate??? Give me a freaken break!� I wasn't born yesterday!

It's been thudering out and I am not sure if we will actually get a storm or not...I got a new wireless internet modem...but need to put it together tomorrow. Hopefully it will work.

I woke up low this morn. I needed to drink oj. I was suppose to go and get my blood work but I needed to be fasting--so I had to re-schedule for tomorrow morn. I couldn't chance not fasting for the one blood test that will show which diabetic type I am.

I was sick again most of the day. I didn't take any insulin at lunch and had to have more oj. I went to sleep till around 3:30pm then got up and went to best buy to by the wireless modem. I went to starbucks and to my sugar free/fat free drink and got by eyebrowns waxed. then I went to the gocery store and then back to dads. I watched a movie and then some tv. I am tired and my stomach hurts a little but not as bad as it was today.

Nothing else I can think of typing. I need to get a new picture of me and send off to my grandma to show her my weight loss.� Oh well, another day tomorrow.

Ok...I hope my internet connection doesn't get lost again this time.

�Another day. I went to my new diabetic doctor today and she told me I look better.� I cant go�back to work yet. I need to get the blood sugars under better control. she raised my night insulin to 20 units but when I took the shot tonight I forgot to take the new amount and only took 18 units of long insulin tonight.

the doctor said that she went over my latest admissions and that I was NOT admitted for DKA like the doctors kept telling me I was admitted for.� The doctor wonders if my pancreas produces insulin and if I am even type 1 diabetic. Wow that would be wild that if I am a type 2 diabetic and I have been treated for 24 years as a type1.� I take blood test tomorrow to see how things are and find out what type of diabetic I am.

I went to GNC today with dad.� i got some low carb protein bars and got a bad stomach pains about an hour after I ate them. people in the group on line said that it could be cause the bars to "denise" and my pouch/stomach is still to new to be eating something like that!?� I have been so sick to my stomach and I wonder if it's from the protein bar.

my sugar was high and i took more insulin. it's a little below 200 right now.� I am VERY tired and think I am going to try to go to sleep.� i took some phegan for the stomach and it hasn't helped that much!

Ok..enough of my stomach pains...I am going to take my sleep meds!!� I go for blood work at 9:30 am� (fasting)� tomarrow at quest diagostic.� Lets see if thy can get a vein...Lets pray for for my veins. Ok...I will write you later---as if anyone actually reads this...So night!

well every day seems to be a little better.� I was doing well until dinner time. I went to my friend's doctor with her and I ate my chicken on the way home. I was throwing up for a few hours after and with bad pain...like things were spazing!� OUCH!

I am watching TAPS on tv...Ghost hunters... and its almost 11pm...wow.� Think the ex step mom is seeing someone else....she got here at 10pm. she needs to move out and live on her own and stop living off my dad. IF she wants to be divorced then stop trying to live off my dad! She just pisses me off to no end. And if it wasn't for the fact I respect my father I would get so in her stupid face and tell her! No.. I am not mad...not me!

I see the diabetic doctor tomorrow. I know I am not ready to go back to work. maybe one more week.��I hope!� My sugar isn't stable enough. and I was so sick after eating the chicken tonight.� The air froze at dad's house and I am still staying here till I get better. but at least it wasn't a lot to get fixed!! Thank God!!

I am sooooo tired but I just want to watch this show. It's like I am watching law n order... I am now getting sick to my stomach.� i have been feeling that a lot lately.��I am going to ask the doctor about getting that med from Canada---you need a per scription to get it...go figure.

ok...I am going to go to sleep soon. For some reason when I try to hit the shift button to make the caps..it's not working. I need to get off this one med cause it's effecting my memory again.� I swear that's the reson! Honest Ok..Well it's time to take my meds so I can go to sleep soon!! I hope and pray!!

Today makes 8 days OUT of the hospital! THANK YOU GOD!!

well it's been one week that I have now been out of the hospital.� WOW...it seems so long ago.� I went home and tried on clothes. I am down to the smallest clothes size that I have.� I have lost a lot of the bottom half and not much on the top.

I tired a protein bar today and got soooo sick.� it had way to many carbs in the stupid thing.� I woke up with my blood sugar low. I had to have some orange juice. then again at lunch. then it went the other way and my� blood sugar has been high ever since.

Mood is a little better. Still not normal. I went and stopped in by work today. I do miss work.� miss having a "normal" life.� Some reason my stomach is not feeling well right now.� I might have ate to much today.� I had yogurt and orange juice for breakfast. I had 4 chicken fingers and orange jucie for lunch. then I had a stupid protein bar that made me sick.�� I had some crackers and 4 chicken fingers for dinner.� I haven't thrown up or had any diarrhea today which is a shock!

I am glad that I have lost some weight...but this past month and a half has been hell.� I still have the gastroparesis and I am mad as hell that the doctor lied to me...But I guess it's something I have to get over...sooner then later.

Well, I need to take my blood sugar and get to bed....Good night!

Today was a better day. I woke up early..thanks to my Dad...lol... I went to the beach and sat there while dad went for a walk. it was a nice day.� Came home and watched tv for a while. Then dad and I went to the mall for some walking.� It went well.�

Tonight I was hungry. I tired to eat some meatballs...I ate like three and that didn't go down well.� Later I ate some yogurt and 2 sugar free puddings.� I hate the fact that I am feeling hungry...that worries me.� Liquids go down better and due to the gastroparesis...no wonder.

My mood's still depressed. I cry over nothing.� l look a lot better and I am starting to feel better.� Sugar's still going everywhere. Good one moment and high the next.� Who knows.� I hope we have a handle on it.

I called comcast about the internet connection...and big shock...guess what? They claim it's fine and thank you for calling. Worthless!

so that's all I have for today. I pray for a good day tomorrow!!� And a good night sleep!

Well, here I am again. I almost ended up in the emergency room today. My sugar spiked high around lunch and I don't know why. I started to get sick again. I was getting short of breath the whole thing. My dad had to call the doctor and see what she wanted me to do. I threw up some of my dinner. Fish. It doesn't seem to agree with me.� I took meds to help how sick my stomach felt and since they make me tired I actually got an hour nap with out waking up in a cold sweat.��

My last night in the hospital I woke up wet from head to toe sweating. Now every time I go to sleep I wake up about twice a night all wet in a cold sweat. I have to get up and change all my clothes.�

I went in the pool and got some sun early this morn though. I haven't been in the sun or pool for a long long time. Hard to believe but I miss work.� I miss having a "normal" life.My mood's depressed today still. But hasn't been that bad.� I was sick a lot today though.

�The internet server keeps going down and it's pissing me off!� I type a whole thing out and then lose it. I am going to end this so that I don't have to re-type it.��Good night.

well--it's day four (Saturday)�that I have been out of the hospital. Today was a better day. I woke up with my blood sugar good.� I lost 37 pounds so far. Today my dad and I went to the flea market and when driving...no one was on the road. The stupid cost of gas is crazy. No one was at the flea market and not so many venders.� I got tired very quick but it was nice. Watched some movies tonight and that was about the most of my day.� My mood is still depressed.� I still cant eat much. I tired some ground meat in a taco.� I miss food.� I had to think back to when I got addicted to food. I think I pin pointed it.� I never knew how much food was a big part of my life.� At least I will be saving money on not eating out as much as I have. Ok...I am tired and want to try to sleep. Which is a joke. I keep waking up in a cold sweat and then I have to get up and change. I can't take a nap and I have no idea how I can be depressed and not sleeping.� I don't function well without lots of sleep. Well.... off I go...