Best Friend Forever, that title is being thrown around alot these days. I'm thinking the originators didn't have a real grasp on the forever part. Probably being a bit overly optimistic.
I've had a very long friendship with Barb. We met when we were teens. We soon married men that had known each other since they were little, so we became close over the years. As our families grew we supported each other through the tough times and shared in tons of fun times. We came to consider each other as family.
I never had to say or think that our friendship had to have a time-frame put on it. ie; "BFF". I did however, tell others that Barb was my best friend. Not sure if she had that same opinion of me. Not feeling valued as a friend at all these days. Not for quite awhile really.
Most recently I know that Barb's struggling with her son's move to another country with his wife and kids. I know she anticipated feeling a great loss. I can imagine how she feels, I am sorry for her and wish I could help. I also know that this will pass and�that she wants what her son wants and hopes for his happiness - whatever or wherever that is.
Yesterday I got a call from�Janet, she doesn't call often but had run into my father unexpectantly and had to share�thier encounter with me. Cool. But when she told me about how it's going for Barb and that she has�been here-there-and everywhere seeking shoulders to cry on, I realized I wasn't one she wanted to turn to. It saddened me.�
I have to wonder if�I've been a good friend�to her. I�feel very much on the outside of her life when it comes to�her times of need. I am thinking back on events�like a death in the family. I reach out to help and she turns away even rejects me. I told myself this is the way she handles things, it's about her not me. We have a strong bond, don't be concerned that�it means anything bad.
Today, I can't believe�the story anymore. �I don't know what else I can do. I've made myself available, to me that's about it. If she needs me she'll find me.
I think I sound so stupid right now. Wah-wah, poor me!! Shut-up! Your friend is having a hard time and you're upset that she doesn't need you to help her with it!!!!! Grow up!
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