See how I am? I've got this kind of control thing going and I'm just not naturally going to let things happen.
As if I have any real control at all.
I was told once that "control is nothing more than a mirage". Like the wavie lines over what looks�like water that�you see on a highway when it's hot. It's there - until you get close enough, then you see it wasn't there at all.�I believe�I have control over some event�or some person�until the inevitable result proves I got nothing!�It was going to be what it was going to be all along and I could have just relaxed, rolled with it and perhaps even enjoyed myself...but I've always got my foot hovering over the brakes - never know when somethings gonna come flyin at you.
What am I talking about? I'm sure it doesn't really matter, this like many other times in my life is just the same and I don't need to remember the details. I need to learn to let go, let it happen, trust it will work out and if it doesn't I will survive.
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