Things are improving with regard to D. I couldn't have predicted it though. I was really feeling doomed. But I put it out there (here and also to a trusted friend) and got some feedback that has us moving in what seems to be a better direction. How can I tell? Mostly because I'm not feeling that wierd, hallow emptiness in my gut. I've had it enough by now that I should trust it.
We have turned things around with him in the last week. We listened to advice and acted on it. Made some changes ie; his bills are now back on him, we'll support him by helping with gas money and paying for the school, period.�He responded amazingly well (hopefully he wasn't just�blowin smoke up my dress), he seems happier now. With regard to the new school: he's made progress! The ball is rolling!! He had a choice to attend during day hrs. or evening hrs., he chose evening so he wouldn't miss work - !! Wow! Good choice!! He got the first binder that needed to be worked on by himself & a�trainer from work then brought back next Monday night- his first night of class, so I'm happier now.
I'm seeing here the true value of journaling: a concrete way to know that things are changing,�I�am changing! I need this because I get hung up in thinking negative thoughts when I hit a wall with something. I have a hard time believing that anything will get better. It's so hard to tell myself a good story about how "everything's going to be alright". BUT when I do this, and look back, then I can actually remember and see the issues evolve.
Gives me hope.