What ever comes to mind

 
    
27
Nov 2011
8:09 PM
   

Time

I don't like the new clock I bought for my bathroom. I don't. It "tick-tocks" each individual second. Being alone for such a long, long time & having some major decisions to make & things to deal with, knowing I need someone I can turn to for advice & just plain knowing I matter...it's such a long road & my mind says it should matter, but, heck even the strongest can get weak. Nothing at all matters any more. My mind says I should do this or that....but my heart & soul keep asking...why? Really. What's the use? Fight & struggle to stay? Stay? Here? Through more crap to deal with while trying to kill the which has eaten away at my heart & soul, that's shown me how much I really don't matter.....to anything/one but God & my dogs. I can't make staying make sense. I'm trying really hard....but, I just can't come up with any good reason. I am no one. I'm sick of being alone & damn it I have the human need to feel loved & I wanted to be...just ONCE in this life. Just one person. There must b something terribly wrong with me or else love, real love doesn't exist.
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    About Me: After all these years, still trying to figure myself out....

    Interests: Life....

    Favorite Music: A large part of my life and memories

    Favorite Movies: Tootsie, Life is Beautiful, Schindler's List, The Departed, Star Wars, yes she and I are cousins, and any James Bond 007.

    Favorite Television: Used to really enjoy the Croc Hunger Steve Irwin, I miss him even though I never knew him. He had such a passion for teaching others about this beautiful earth we are in charge of.

    Favorite Books: Never read Wiethering Heights or Jane Eyer until you are about 17. Those love stories really had an impact on me. And of course, the Bible...such love and wisdom. We are fortunate and blessed to freely have this book. God help us when the day comes, we cannot.