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Apr 2011
10:50 AM

long time no see, journal

Sooooo, a lot has changed since I last updated here.� The last relationship I was in did indeed, come to an end.� We are friends, it was sad, I still care deeply for him, but he just didn't have time in his life for me with the new job and existing priorities.� Such is life....
I have met someone new, well, I didn't actually meet him. We've known each other since our childhood.� Had a little crush back when I was 15 or 16.� Things took off rather quick and heated and now I seem to be getting mixed signals... just not sure how to take him.� He was working out of town when we reconnected, told me to call him anytime and we sometimes talked for hours, he would text me as soon as I was up in the mornings and we would chat on facebook throughout the day.� One day he called me 5 times!� We set up a date for when he got home and we were both pleasantly surprised.� However, it quickly turned into a sex thing, and I was dumb enough to let it go there.� Since then, we go through bouts of lots of contact, to very little.� I've asked him point blank if he would like for me to just leave him alone.. his response was not a "beat around the bush kind of answer but just a flat "NO"� He immediately called me and asked why I would think that.� I responded with I didn't know, I don't want him to think I'm a psycho that expects him to contact me constantly or even every day.� He has told me that he is no good at relationships and he always screws them up. I just don't know if I should remain engaged or just back off....� Just when I think, ok, I'm not going to contact him anymore until I hear from him he'll call or something.� So I'm not sure why I feel this way.� Its just weird.�

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Username: alabrat

Gender / Age: Female, 56

Location: USA - Tennessee